" 1 aI loathe my own life
; I will give
full
vent
to bmy complaint
; I will speak
in the bitterness
of my soul
.
"I will say to God
, ` aDo not condemn
me; Let me know
why
You contend
with me.
`Is it 1right for You indeed
to aoppress
, To reject
bthe labor
of Your hands
, And 2to look
favorably
on cthe schemes
of the wicked
?
`Have You eyes of flesh
? Or
do You asee
as a man
sees
?
`Are Your days as the days
of a mortal
, Or
aYour years
as man's
years
,
That aYou should seek for my guilt
And search
after my sin
?
`According to Your knowledge
aI am indeed
not guilty
, Yet there
is bno
deliverance
from Your hand
.
` aYour hands fashioned
and made
me 1altogether
, bAnd would You destroy
me?
`Remember now
, that You have made
me as aclay
; And would You bturn
me into dust
again
?
`Did You not pour me out like milk
And curdle
me like cheese
;
Clothe me with skin
and flesh
, And knit
me together
with bones
and sinews
?
`You have agranted me life
and lovingkindness
; And Your care
has preserved
my spirit
.
`Yet athese things
You have concealed
in Your heart
; I know
that this
is within
You:
If I sin
, then You would atake
note
of me, And bwould not acquit
me of my guilt
.
`If aI am wicked
, woe
to me! And bif I am righteous
, I dare not lift
up my head
. I am sated
with disgrace
and 1conscious
of my misery
.
`Should my head be lifted up, aYou would hunt
me like a lion
; And again
You would show
Your bpower
against me.
`You renew aYour witnesses
against
me And increase
Your anger
toward
me; 1 bHardship
after hardship
is with me.
` aWhy then have You brought
me out of the womb
? Would that I had died
and no
eye
had seen
me!
`I should have been as though
I had not been
, Carried
from womb
to tomb
.'
"Would He not let amy few
days
alone
? 1 bWithdraw
from me that I may have
a little
cheer
Before I go
-- aand I shall not return
-- bTo the land
of darkness
and cdeep
shadow
,
The land of utter
gloom
as darkness
itself, Of deep
shadow
without
order
, And which shines
as the darkness
."